IT IS NOT FUN! NOT AT ALL!!!
I have been feeling this crazy nagging longing to go home and see my family for the last few days. The feeling just sort of crept out of nowhere and ate up every single cell of mine while sleep eluded me.
It was hard to supress the feeling when my head start churning out all numbers of days i will be away from home, which is like a pathetic 355 days a year or something. =(
Couldnt help thinking that so much would have happened at home while i am away leading my life in this other part of the world, and i would have missed out so much...so much of the important time and events of the people i love most in my life.
I saw mum, getting older by years, and i wish i could be there, to take care of her and to make her happy for we are all she has. I see my sisters having their families, their home. I see Jojo and Jason finishing their studies, i see them becoming adults with their own life...I see so many things in the future, but i dont see myself in the picture.
Maybe this is just a phase everyone goes through. Maybe, like everything, time will heal the yearnings.
Its still a long way home.
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